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Entry #4 – Conservative

ok i need to know what you guys are thinking…which brings me to conservative.

I’ve hung out with two groups so far in my life…from child hood to age 21 i’ve always hung out with white ppl. Never had an asian friend..i mean a real asain friend..not an asian friend who thinks she’s white…no no…a real asian friend til i was 22. Now…Mike and I were discussing this on the way to Rockville..and on the way back the other nite. We both agreed that asians are more conservative when it comes to public affection..and sex.

Now..what i noticed, now knowing both sides, that white ppl are more opened with their sexualitly…i’m not being racist, or prejudice..but this is what I noticed.

Ex: #1 – Public affection

In an asian environment..I wouldn’t be comfortable going to one of my asian guy friends and kissing on the cheek..or hug them..or even sit ever so closely to them..it’s just not possible…becuz they have this ‘space’. it’s like no one can do anything without someone thinking something ill shit is goin on…come on now. Ppl mess around…yes we all know that..but if you ask them about it, they’ll deny, or worst even swear on their mother’s grave they’re not. Is there really a reason to hide this? not really…only IMAGE.

Ok now with the white crowd. I remember our parties…comin into a room and seeing someone you know..hey, first thing off the top of our heads..hug the shit outta each other…i’m speakin on a guy/girl interaction here. Or with some…a kiss is in order. and you can do this without other ppl stopping and gasp with ill thoughts running across their heads. I remember this one time i met this guy named Sasha…he knew my friend Wendy and gave her a kiss on the lips..no biggie, then he turned to me and gave me one and said nice to meet you…

Ex: #2 – Being open and comfortable with each other

I haven’t played many games with Asian folks..but this is what i heard. During drinking games with a group of 5 or more…things get ‘crazy’ . For instance…this one game called..”Have you ever”..well i played that game once…and i didn’t know this..but later on..someone told me that half the ppl were lying. Truth or Dare…this is the game where everything goes…this is what i heard…the furthest guys went was strip down to your boxers..even then, some are hesistant. and girls, ‘get naked by changing out of your clothes under a blanket’.

Games I remember playing the most with my friends was Truth or Dare. Dare: Take all your clothes off. Done. Dare: walk around the outside of the house naked. Done. So by this time we’re all sittin around naked..and staring at each other..but you know what? no one gives a shit. so Dare: reinact doggy style. Done. Now that’s when things start to get interesting…everytime my friend JR play with us..it’s not reinacting…it’s the actual thing. Like…Dare: pretend you’re eating her out. Done..but it’s not pretend. and we’re all ok with it…if anything we find it very funny…

well maybe that’s a bit on the wild side..but nonetheless…i remember just being able to lay next to my friend mikey on the couch over his and dave’s place, and there wasn’t any weird feelings or any wrong ideas…

Entry #3 – Fetish

Fetish – an object or bodily part whose real or fantasied presence is psychologically necessary for sexual gratification and that is an object of fixation to the extent that it may interfere with complete sexual expression.

Now, in my opinion there are some really weird and nasty festishes. For example, feet fetish…who the heck wants to be remotely close to smelly, sweaty feet? I can think of many cooler fetishes than eating toe jam and licking feet sweat. And what the hell is this about Bestiality. Bestiality: sexual relations between a human being and a lower animal. And you guys are telling me that’s a fetish. So human’s don’t do it for you, you got go doin it with animals…well…who am i to judge right?

Well, let’s just talk about less vile fetishes.

BDSM, I happen to be quite fond of BDSM. What I want most is one of those harness slings..and a collar…call me a freak. No pain tho…that just ruins the whole sexual feeling. But I think that if you like being tied up, whipped, or gagged, by all means, have fun. Just don’t go too far…we wouldn’t like to draw blood now would we.

Sex Toyz…man there are soooo many cool devices…there are some crazy machines out there…yes..not toyz..but machines. It’s wonderful…you don’t need a man and you don’t need to do it yourself. It does it all for you. so you can just sit/lay back and let it do its job.

School girls: Now, i don’t really kno what that’s about…but i know some find it a turn on to do it with a lil school girl, and i don’t mean children. I suppose it’s all for the innocence. Guys sometimes get turned on by the lil innocent side of girls, like they haven’t been touched, girls who are pure. It’s an ego trip I tell ya. to know you’re the first to deflower them…it’s like marking them. Its the competetive side of guys.

Ppl who are interesting in girl on girl: Girl on girl, nothing wrong with that. I myself have been in that situation…(it’s not that big of a deal). For some reason it really does a number on guys. Maybe it’s the fact that it’s not supposed to be..it’s taboo. But you won’t, in a million years, hear about guys, or girls in a matter of fact, go ga-ga over guy on guy. What has society come to where girl on girl is ok..but guy on guy is the greatest sin known to mankind. But ok..i’d admit, guy on guy is alil..well..icky. But for those who enjoys it, more power to you. I for one am not into that. So, girl on girl….for guys, what’s hotter than two girls, kissing and feeling each other’s bodies..it’s like, the more the merrier. But for girls, some girls think it’s as bad as guy on guy. and for them, it is wrong, it shouldn’t be. But you kno what I think, I think girl on girl is ok…far more ok than guy on guy. With guy on guy, you’re sticking things that you shouldn’t be sticking up…don’t you get it? exit only.

Threesomes and Orgies: Well my opinion on this subject is..well..the more the merrier I always say…I’ve witnessed an orgy before, but was never in one myself. and i’ll tell ya, wild shit goes on there…it’s kinda weird too..cuz there are soo many body parts all twisted together…you don’t kno who you’re touching or who’s touching you..but i guess that’s where suppose to be opened and not care. I heard this comedian talk about this once..i forgot who said it and exactly what they said, but basically, it goes something like this ‘i got so into it and i had no idea who i was touching or who was touching me, and next thing i knew i was sucking my own dick”. hahaha..something like that. but yeah…orgies can get out of hand, if you’re inexperienced, but want more than just your partner…i suggest a threesome. It’s like, you have your partner..but then there’s alil something extra. and extra is always good.

By the way, all this talk might leave someone of you thinking differently about me. But let me just tell ya, just cuz i’m alil freaky and have tried alot of crazy shit, doesn’t make me a whore or a slut. I’m just clarifying just in case you guys think otherwise, I’ve only been with two guys my entire life. And both guys were bf’s. I’m just tryin to open up some minds here.

Taking a break from the whole Sex topic..I just scaneed these pictures..they’re from awhile ago..lemme share!

At Deny’s after Snowboarding trip Winter 2002: (from left) Lucas, Mike, Me, Christina, Minh, and Amy…

Mike playing with my lil cousin Alex..aren’t they cute?

Hmm..not sure when this is from..but i guess it’s just the boyz chillin over at minh’s place..(top left):Lucas, Paul, Mike, (bottom) Jing and Minh.

My UMBC Boyz: Kai, Mike, Minh and Jon chillin at the UC…2001

Christmas Dinner with the family. (left) Vu, Alex, Mike, and Jung. 2001

My baby cousins Alex (age: 5) and Nicky (age: 2) Most recent pics…aren’t they the cutest? Picture taken for Xmas holiday. hence all the red. Their favorite person: Mike..muahahaha.

Ok that is all for today, stay tuned…New Year’s 2003 photos on the way!!! I can’t wait!

Second Entry

(remember this is only my opinion)

TOPIC: Masturbastion

yes..masterbation. everyone always avoid this subject..but just face it…everyone does it..and if you say you don’t..you’re lying. Masturbation doesn’t mean bad..it means fun! haha. hey and what better way to stay STD free right?

now for guys, if you ‘walk the dog’ ‘choke the chicken’ ‘spank the monkey’ just remember don’t do it too much…although, i think you should do it daily to keep from losing control during intercourse. helps you practice control. you don’t want to be the minute man. Just remember not to forget the lube/lotion..whatever floats your boat..don’t want to rub it raw ya know…it’s not a pretty feeling…so, go, masturbate, make it fun. A guy i used to kno in high school used to have a goal while jerking…the would measure how far he can shoot every time he came and try to beat that record. now..i don’t know about all that but if playing games or setting records is your cup of tea..by all means.

ok girls, i think this subject usually make us uncomfortable…but come on..if guys can, so can we right? we need to pleasure ourselves too, yes guys, you don’t always take care of business…sorry to say..but we have to take care of ourselves sometimes. now this might be too much info for you guys but heck..i’ve always been an open-minded person…yes i masturbate..ok i said it and that doesn’t make me a slut, skank or whore. Personally I don’t like touching myself…it doesn’t feel like much becuz there are too many senses goin on…so i go for the toys…the wonderful toys. I suggest every girl to have one…it doesn’t only take care of business but heck..it relaxes you too. let’s see a guy do that. A massager is the best…it takes care of business…relaxes you..AND soothe those sore muscles…best thing since sliced bread. Of course there are other things you can use…and by golly there are some fancy ones out there. And the G-spot…does that even exist? how many girls can say they know where their Gspot is? cuz shit i don’t, i sometimes think i do…it’s either my imagination or that shit moves.

So ladies and gents..do whatever you need to do to achieve maximum pleasure..even if you have to do it yourself.

so..how am i doin..eh..it doesn’t matter..they’re my opinions.

Tune in tomorrow…

Ok SEX…there’s three types…

1) making love – intimacy…lookin into each other’s eyes, kissing, and slowly movin up to that one moment when you two are completely and utterly alone..just the two of you..no one/thing existed but just the two of you..

2) sex – plain, doin it for the sake of doin it. pleasure but no feelings. doesn’t even matter who you’re doin it with. some kissing..but definitely no gazing into each other’s eyes.

3) f*ckin – straight up wild/kinky/fun. Crazy shit happens when you’re in this phase. everything goes..you don’t care who’s listening..or watching for some of you. it’s like when you want it…you’ve got to have it. and this only applies when you’re with someone fun. name callin, back scratchin, pouncing…

Business or Pleasure

all of these above are fun. now the key to sex is you must understand the concept of sex. some of you girls think, well if i can make him orgasm..my work is done…and some of you guys think, if i can bust a nut, my work is done. no no no, first, girls, it’s not about making the guy finish as fast as he can..or as fast as you can make them finish…where’s the fun in that? guys, you gotta please the woman too…if the ladies aren’t having fun…don’t you just wonder..am i doin this right? Makin the man finish his business is the last thing you gotta worry about…first..make sure you get your end of the bargain. am i right? i mean..i’m not tryin to offend anyone by sayin this..but girls..wouldn’t you feel like a whore if you’re there to please the man? but don’t get me wrong..girls, you do need to finish your job too…knowing that you can make your dude finish is the icing on the cake..it’s like..oh yay, he enjoyed it..i kno what i’m doin and man i’m good. same goes for guys too. how would you feel if you came and your girl is just blah…would you feel like you’re the man? would you even think you’re good at sex?

like chris rock said…a crack head and a christian cannot be together…but a crackhead and a crackhead can stay together forever. it’s almost like that…

well there goes my first entry…i’ll see when i’ll keep writing..maybe i’ll do it by business days. haha…

ben came over to chill abit and brought me ham and bread..haha..thanks yummi, it was nice of ya. well i made them dinner while they played xbox.

My favorite ice cream..it’s sooo good..chocolate malt with almonds..it’s the best! go get some..oh and get me some too! Oh and try McDonald’s fries with hot fudge..shit is good..:-!

yesterday: we went over to lil tuan’s place..i didnt’ really felt like goin cuz i didn’t get any sleep the nite before and then the freakin maintainence guys came to replace all the windows..with all the banging and noise..there was no way i could sleep..so i stayed up…me mike minh went down before 3…and met tuan and quan at pho…ate there and then they went to wash their cars..i passed the fuck out in the car..and then woke up at tuan’s house. nice place they got there. but i was so freakin tired i just past out on tuan’s bed…didn’t really feel comfortable sleepin in his bed considering i don’t really kno tuan all that much..but mike insisted and tuan didn’t really mind i guess..so i just knocked out again. woke up to mike sayin ‘come on baby, let’s go, (SOMEBODY) comin over in 20 mins’… didn’t need to tell me twice…so i rolled over and just walked out…with my eyes closed…haha…made a bee line straight to the car. haha…i didn’t realize how late it was…by the time we got outta there it was almost 9.

so then we went over to linda’s. it’s sooo nice..i LOVE their furniture. and it soo great to see vi again. my lil vi is growing up! so we sat around looking thru the IKEA catalog and old picture albums..and margret cho. vi made us some yummy yummy cinn. rolls..oh they were goooood…we ate that while watching chris rock. we just chilled and pretty much talked and filled each other in on what was goin on. her and rob are getting married in like 2 years or so…i’m so happy for her! KUDOS VI!

so Linda has the nicest bed in the world…i love it..that pic is almost like it..but she has a white frame..and it’s huge! like you can fit 10 of her in that bed…l want a bed like that…it’s kinda japanese..just cuz it’s low i guess…but it’s awesome. oh and their kitchen! vi did a great job with the kitchen..it’s soo lovely…she calls it her domain..haha. when i get a house..i must have a art/sitting room…and it’ll be loaded with art and pictures and everything! that will be my domain..my escape.

I love this! i need this! i want this!

Two of the most adorable entertainers. She’s the lil girl in I Am Sam…if you havent’ seen that movie, go rent it now!!!! and don’t forget the box of tissues..i almost promise you will cry. well..he doesn’t need an introduction.

Speakin of movies..i recently came upon this movie on accident..it’s called My Geisha..and it’s about a lady,Lucy Dell, who disguises herself as a geisha to be in her husbands movie, a japanese reproduction of Madam Butterfly. she really pulled if off didn’t she?? she does look japanese..and it’s a good movie. it’s a comedy…i didn’t get to watch the whole movie..it was about 3/4 into the movie..if not 1/2 way..it wasn’t really funny..but it was pretty good the way it was…it’s an old movie..1962. they prolly have it at blockbuster..so go rent it if you can..it’s pretty good, if you like old movies, it’s in color, don’t worry.

damn, long entry..well at least linda has something to read now, even if it’s of my boring as day. have fun!

ok here it is…mike came up with an idea..i should write about sex…nothing too graphic of course. for one week..starting Friday, i will write about sex..hope i don’t run out of things to say…but it’s sex..no one ever runs out of things to say about sex..so leave me comments guys and gals on the topic you think i should write about…oh and angela..i am NOT goin to write about circumsiztion…you nasty nasty girl.

Angela what the hell were you smoking?? Doesn’t she look like an armless hobbit, right guys? she does doesn’t she??? how weird is she.

Epitome: I HAVE BALLS IN MY PICTURE OO

well ok, haven’t slept yet..it’s like 10am or so..and i haven’t slept…been talkin to a dear friend of mine..she’s sad and i wish there was something i can do…but i guess this is something she has to fight on her own…you can do it..you’ll see…you’ll be a better person in the end. well i guess imma go sleep next to my baby now..and sleep for like 3 hours..as for you angela! stop smoking that shit! it’s not good for you…

ok at this moment someone is takin apart my window and so i have this big open area..and it’s cold as shit outside…well at leas this means i’m gettin new windows…muahahha.it’s awesome! and they’re done..but left a huge pile crap on my carpet..i guess mike’ll be vacuuming today!

and yet another picture of this handsome/adorable guy..hehe..THIS IS JUST FOR FUN YOU GUYS..I’M NOT CRAZY! cute huh?

If only: sweetie: sing with me wife of elf

At my daddy’s rite now..eating yummy yummy tofu soup…my dad’s the best cook ever!

Ok so i’ve decided NOT to get a hair cut..i figure i can do alot more with it long..maybe i’ll get it cut later on but i guess i’m not ready to depart from this length just yet. sorry amanda! ok so i’ve decided to go to cali this spring break..yay! i get a plane ticket AND money. muahaha…mommy will buy mikee a plane ticket too…isn’t he just the luckiest boy ever? ok well..gotta go finish laundry and watch some teevee before i head back up to the apt!

ok here we go…it’s almost 8am…and i haven’t slept..why? cuz my dumbass fell asleep on the couch earlier and now i just can’t sleep..

anywho..been thinkin about a tatoo..middle of my back..and of tinkerbell…how cute would that be? but like i have no meat on my body..meaning that shit will hurt like hell. i’d get a belly ring but i think they’re played out. and another con for tatoos is that it’ll stretch or wrinkle when i get old. i don’t want to be 70 and walkin around with a wrinkled tatoo on my back. what do you guys think? belly rings are as good as gone after you get pregnant. not that i’m thinkin about having a baby anytime soon. hmm…i guess i like my body unspoiled…hate to regret it when i’m old. i have like 6 holes in my ears total, and i’m regretting that already..

another issue..I NEED/WANT A HAIR CUT..like maybe a bob or not that short..but something like shoulder length or something…something like Jennifer Aniston’s..but maybe alil shorter…i like short hair. but i like long hair too..just cuz i can do stuff to it..mike likes long hair…but it’s not his head now is it..hehe..i think i might just go get it chopped off…it’ll grow back by the summer or something..i dunno..what do you guys think?? I NEED HELP! someone decide for me: tatoo or no?<- prolly not.. but haircut and how short? and should i dye it red again? so confused..someone help me!

how adorable is this guy???

Of course this guy is damn cute too…um..maybe not as cute as the one above..but close enough..

I LOVE YOU HONEY!

**well i always thought white dudes were cute…only those who have babyfaces…like orlando..hehe…and that accent..oh yeah…the accent..that british accent…all the better i say..but mike’s the cutest asian dude i’ve seen…don’t hate you guys..hehe…**

oh jon tang, read the comment..left you a note..

Hmm what a day! woke up and went down to columbia to babysit the kids…well..mike babysat..i just sat there…anyways, then we went down to hollywood videos to rent games…and a movie. Jon hooked us up with Two Towers for xbox (oh god the ELF!) and Ballistic. then we went over to Mike’s house to see his cousin Clinton…he still remembers me…he’s cool…and he brought his girl vicky down..and guess what? she’s canto! straight out of HK! she’s cool too..really nice..we’re all plannin on a snowboarding trip in Boston soon…how awesome would that be???

Back at the apt now, playin LOTR…hard game man..hard as heck..and guess who i’m playin!! muahahaha…umm..yeah anyways, getting so tired…need more sleep…